Thursday, July 9, 2009

I'm scared....

It's funny how opportunities arise when you least expect them. Just when i was at my lowest point something comes along that could possibly get me outta it, but you know what? I'm scared.

I wonder if im moving on too soon. But the thing that i was thinking about is that fact that he seems to be doing great. Should i be forced to sit here and sulk in my own misery when he's already moved on? I don't think that i should. If he really is happier without me then i should just leave it be, and be happy that he's happy... right?

I mean, Zach seems like a really great guy. We kinda have the same outlook on things and the same goals in life. I was really surprised when i was talking to him because all of the things he was saying were things that i have said to multiple people before. We are a lot a like and i think that this could be good for me. The only thing holding me back is me thinking that im moving on too soon, or maybe its just useless hope, actually, i think thats what it is.... wow, that sucks.

I think he's actually coming in after he gets off of work today though. We'll see how that goes i guess...? Surprisingly i forget about everything and just get super giddy and happy when i see him, shouldn't i be wanting to hold onto that feeling?
i think so too.

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