Anyways, Chris and I are no longer together and i honestly don't know how to feel about it. It's totally up and down. Surprisingly i was alright during the break up and i felt more angry than anything; i felt like i was just being dragged (is that correct grammar?? hmmm) along for the last couple of days before the break up... but later on during that day i felt totally weirded out. I don't know, im just so up and down about it. In a way i feel like it was the time to break up, but im just a little upset that i had talked to him the night before and that i could feel things getting distant, but it had to be on our 6 month. mehhhh.
I'm not sure if im upset at the fact that we aren't together anymore, or that i feel like im just going to be lonely. Thats always been a problem of mine.... i don't know how to distinguish between the two; no doubt that i loved him and absolutely adored him, but was i ready for it? Was it really the right time? Was the fact that i was willing to over look EVERYTHING because i wanted things to work out to badly part of the reason as to why i was feeling weird? Who know's....
Because i don't. No seriously, someone help me out with this.
i was randonly looking through my CD's in my car this morning and found a CD with this song on it (it was on my "Break-up CD" HAHA go figure. Anyways... its a song that i haven't listened to in years. Super sad and depressing, but for some reason, it makes me feel good. This is "Dry your Eyes - The streets"
i guess chris martin sings in it... WTF??!!
Enjoy, my dearies.