Saturday, March 27, 2010

One last one, just to get everything out.

So lately i've been feeling really weird. It's finally hit me, that i'm slowly, but surely getting used to the fact that you are no longer a part of my life. It's hard to think of, because there was one point in time when i thought that we would be together for a long while... following through with plans.. making a new with you, and i was excited...
If you had asked me to pack up and leave at any moment, honest to God; i would have done it without any hesitation at all... that's how serious and how in love i was with you. I was crazy about you; maybe it was just me being young and naive...? But i was sooo crazy about you.
I know that things are better this way, but it doesn't help how much it hurts that you left; doesn't help that you left me for someone else, granted it's different circumstances, but either way it was you saying that you didn't want me anymore.... and it hurts like hell to had been rejected by someone that i was so in love with.
I'm just writing to get all of this out....It was soo random. I hadn't thought about you since the last time that we talked.... but i was rummaging through some videos on youtube and found this one, by an amazing singer... the title caught my eye for some reason, and i had to stop and take a listen. It's the combination of her soothing voice, simple melody, but powerful lyrics that got to me.... it reminds me of how i felt right after we broke up. It's like she took the words right out of my head and into an amazing song.
But this is just a temporary relapse.... but i think it's about time that i get all of this emotion out of me.... just one last time. This song is for you. I love you, and i hope for nothing but the best for you...

Here's the video that made me cry like a fuckin baby (lol).... "Someone you used to know" - Zee Avi

"It was helpless anyway
There's nothing much we could do or say
Darling don't you think it's a shame?
that it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,
our love is lost, and we cant figure why
maybe it really is about time
that we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you
i hope that when you find someone new
that she would always be true to you
to love and understand you

Soon you'll build new memories
then slowly you'd forget about me
then i would slowly be
a distant memory

*Soon i'll just be
that someone you used to know
But darling you will thank me
for letting you go
time is not for wasting
i hope you'll find your intended
But i'm sorry
that your intended isn't me

it's not an easy thing
to shake off our history
i know that's what you want from me
but they will always stay with me

i admit i made mistakes
but darling with you it's just the same
if we stay there will be more to make
i dont know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair
to stay with something no longer there
but it doesn't mean i no longer care
but i'd feel like a burden you can't bear"

Sunday, March 14, 2010

This version,

is better than the one on the youtube account (since this one is actually in my range :P)
just a little snippet of it... but recently i have been soo in love with this song.
So thanks John Legend... for being fucking amazing <3

Monday, March 8, 2010

"Turning over a new leaf"

So i have this thing weird thing about getting tattooed or pierced after something life changing or big happens in my life, and i have decided to get a new tattoo this month; due to recent events.
I've decided on getting a Cherry blossom/tree. May seem a little cliche, but I think that the meaning is extremely appropriate.

"It encourages everyone to appreciate what little time they have on this Earth and it promotes gratitude for what they are given. This symbol could remind you that all things pass in time and that bad situations won't last forever."

I think this tattoo will lift my spirit up in hard and difficult times in my life... because i really do agree with the meaning of it; everything passes and life is to short to sit and dwell on things, enjoy things while you can.