It's time,

To start looking out for number one.
I need to start taking care of myself, because at the end of the day i know that i can't count on anyone else but myself.
Thanks for the memories, regardless of most of them being bad.
I've learned a ton, and you're making it easy and better for me by walking away.
It hurts like hell, but it'll pass.... like everything else does.

Good luck to you.

I'm no good for you
You're no good for me
This will hurt, I know
you'll change your mind

This is what I want
I cannot pretend
& I promise I won't do this to you
again

Take care of yourself
Someone else needs you
Do not be reckless
I won't be there to save you

"Don't do this", you say
but it's far too late
My world is not made for you
I don't want you

To have a clean break
& me leave with out you
It's what's best for you
Time will heal all of your wounds

I'll always love you
in a way
But you must forget about me
like I never existed

Goodbye, take care of yourself

I can see clearly now,

you're making your decisions abundantly clear.

i don't understand what else i'm supposed to do, except what everyone else is telling me to you.

i'm beating a dead dog with a stick.

i'm just soo exhausted of being so unhappy all the time.

I hold my breath when I take your hand
To try and make the moment expand
Wrap my head around the epic truth
There's nothing I can do
I'll always be in love with you

Though they say a man must be an island
Didn't take me long to realize
That my lady you are like the ocean
And the obvious is true
There is no me if there's no you

Lord, I'm on borrowed time
Story of my life
Ever gonna make it work?
Ever gonna make it last—
For a while?

Lord, I'm on borrowed time
Story of my life
Ever gonna make it work?
Ever gonna make it last—
For a while?

'Cause I know, it happens all the time
But something that we're doin' doin'
Just like the sun's gonna rise up
Our love keeps movin' movin'

'Cause I know, it happens all the time
But something that we're doin' doin'
Just like the sun's gonna rise up
Our love keeps movin' movin'

'Cause I know, it happens all the time
But something that we're doin' doin'
Just like the sun is gonna rise up
Our love keeps movin' movin'

Lush life

sung by my hero, Ella Fitzgerald

Happiness

I don't understand why that's so hard to achieve.

Old habits....

Die hard.



That is all.

"you don't know me"

I don't know who you are. After I found out what I did, it finally hit me. I have no idea who you are. How could you keep something that big from someone that is supposed to mean a lot to you.
I remember a specific conversation that we had when we first started dating that shows that you just straight up lied about everything.
I think that I just made everything up and that's what makes ne upset. I fell
In love with someone that I made up.... Or atleast that's what I feel like.

I'm just super upset.
It's pushed me away from you and I don't feel bad about anything anymore.

[Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone]

Can time move a little faster, please....?

So here's a little update.

I currently live in Lynnwood with Brother and Gayle.
I am no longer an ice cream slave for Cold Stone, I work in downtown Seattle at Washington Federal Savings as a bank teller.

Next month will be my 21 run (super stoked for that one.)
and most important I got accepted into UW Bothell and will be starting on January 4th 2009.

Lifes starting to move forward a little bit, and im really excited about that.

It's the begining of the Holiday season and i'm so glad that im close to downtown to experience it all!!
Apparently the Macy's Day parade comes right down the street by work, so that will be fun to watch from work (that goodness for having ALL glass windows at work...)
Chris' birthday is coming up, then mine, then christmas, then new years, and then our 1 year shortly afterward.

This year has gone by super fast! Where did the time go...??!!!?

I'm sorry that i've been neglecting you, blog... i hope you can forgive me.