so i have this letter,

im absolutely terrible at trying to say things that i need or want to say... so i was on the ferry last night and i just started writing... got everything that i wanted to say out without the awkward pauses that would have occured over the phone. i just wanted to let you know what was rolling through my head.

So the last couple of days i've been listening to the same songs over and over, its weird sometimes i will feel totally fine when im listening to them, and other times i wil want to just want to burst out into tears while driving on highway 16.
Current playlist:
The Edward Song - Veronica
Meet me in the City - The Black Keys
17
Manhattan
i want you - Kings of Leon
Wherever you go - Ida Maria
How ironic that i download all these songs the week before we break up... or is it coincidence?

im leaving for out california jazz trip tomorrow and im hoping that getting away from Gloomy old Washington will help me out a bit.

heres the one that gets me the most...
The Edward Song
I'm no good for you
You're no good for me
This will hurt, I know
you'll change your mind

This is what I want
I cannot pretend
& I promise I won't do this to you
again

Take care of yourself
Someone else needs you
Do not be reckless
I won't be there to save you

"Don't do this", you say
but it's far too late
My world is not made for you
I don't want you

To have a clean break
& me leave with out you
It's what's best for you
Time will heal all of your wounds

I'll always love you
in a way
But you must forget about me
like I never existed

Goodbye, take care of yourself

it's been decided... im sending the letter to you today, the day before i leave.
there i go acting off of impulse again...