So Christal flew in this week and wanted to do some touristy things.... Her first day in, we went walked down the water front, and then this weekend we went bar hopping in Pioneer Square and Belltown... Here are some pictures from the weekend that i can't remember, but wont forget. This weekend summed up in some words... Homie Hoppin', iPhone stealing, bar tender flirting, bartender remembering, drunk sign language, drunk text/calls/emails, and clingy ass men.... photo evidence thanks to Christal.
Christal and her damn Penguin obsession...
Me and my Damn Cat obsession
James and Christal on the ferry, getting ready for the Brown Kid Reunion
"Why your eyes soo small??!! You drunk?!?" - Christ and my hand @ Marcus'
Dropping James off at the Ferry.
Already drunk... one of the many people i met this weekend.. Meet Army Jordan :P
This guy was awesome... Meet Dan- oh and im still drunk and signing "Bitch!" haha
After the bar on friday we went back to Dans work a few blocks away... Christal puke her guts out and the boys had to carry her to the couch from the bathroom... she was here majority of the night till we left at 6 AM. LMFAO
And the only picture from my super drunken night... Christal and Me and the Last Supper Club; the combination of her face and my tits got us in for free.... HAHAHA.
So lately i've been feeling really weird. It's finally hit me, that i'm slowly, but surely getting used to the fact that you are no longer a part of my life. It's hard to think of, because there was one point in time when i thought that we would be together for a long while... following through with plans.. making a new with you, and i was excited... If you had asked me to pack up and leave at any moment, honest to God; i would have done it without any hesitation at all... that's how serious and how in love i was with you. I was crazy about you; maybe it was just me being young and naive...? But i was sooo crazy about you. I know that things are better this way, but it doesn't help how much it hurts that you left; doesn't help that you left me for someone else, granted it's different circumstances, but either way it was you saying that you didn't want me anymore.... and it hurts like hell to had been rejected by someone that i was so in love with. I'm just writing to get all of this out....It was soo random. I hadn't thought about you since the last time that we talked.... but i was rummaging through some videos on youtube and found this one, by an amazing singer... the title caught my eye for some reason, and i had to stop and take a listen. It's the combination of her soothing voice, simple melody, but powerful lyrics that got to me.... it reminds me of how i felt right after we broke up. It's like she took the words right out of my head and into an amazing song. But this is just a temporary relapse.... but i think it's about time that i get all of this emotion out of me.... just one last time. This song is for you. I love you, and i hope for nothing but the best for you...
Here's the video that made me cry like a fuckin baby (lol).... "Someone you used to know" - Zee Avi
"It was helpless anyway There's nothing much we could do or say Darling don't you think it's a shame? that it had to end this way
So here's to say goodbye, our love is lost, and we cant figure why maybe it really is about time that we finally made up our minds
So Darling, here's to you i hope that when you find someone new that she would always be true to you to love and understand you
Soon you'll build new memories then slowly you'd forget about me then i would slowly be a distant memory
*Soon i'll just be that someone you used to know But darling you will thank me for letting you go time is not for wasting i hope you'll find your intended But i'm sorry that your intended isn't me
it's not an easy thing to shake off our history i know that's what you want from me but they will always stay with me
i admit i made mistakes but darling with you it's just the same if we stay there will be more to make i dont know how much more we can take
Darling, it would be unfair to stay with something no longer there but it doesn't mean i no longer care but i'd feel like a burden you can't bear"
So i have this thing weird thing about getting tattooed or pierced after something life changing or big happens in my life, and i have decided to get a new tattoo this month; due to recent events. I've decided on getting a Cherry blossom/tree. May seem a little cliche, but I think that the meaning is extremely appropriate.
"It encourages everyone to appreciate what little time they have on this Earth and it promotes gratitude for what they are given. This symbol could remind you that all things pass in time and that bad situations won't last forever."
I think this tattoo will lift my spirit up in hard and difficult times in my life... because i really do agree with the meaning of it; everything passes and life is to short to sit and dwell on things, enjoy things while you can.
RECAP: Last night i went out with some lovely people to the Last Supper club to watch DJ Jazzy Jeff spin(David, Drea, John, and Zak). It was a very nice night and it was nice to be out with people for a change, and met some nice people too.... how lovely.
Talk about terrible timing and inconvenience. The scariest phone call that I have ever received came to me on monday after class.... It came at the most inconvenient time, after the previous weekend, terribly inconvenient. and it came after such hard news.
But after talking last night, the only thing that i can tell myself is that im going to be fine. I will be. It's just going to be a long couple of weeks, but i need to keep moving forward There's shit that needs to get done, I can't let this distract me until I know that im dealing with.
But, this is just a reminder to myself. Breathe, take a look at everything in front of you. You'l be fine, just keep moving forward until we know whats going on for sure. Breathe, Breathe, Keep Breathing.